terror.

Have you ever ben truelly scared of something?

Have you ever ben terrified of something that doesin't exist ?
(this might sound a bit silly.)

Last night, november 6th, the new documented movie The Fourth Kind came out in theatres... I was supposed to go see Saw Vl but some of my friends really wanted to see The Fourth Kind . & honnestly... I wish I never saw that movie, who is apparently, a true story.

it scared me...

Usualy, I'm always down to watch terrifying movies and get a bit scared.
This one... made me cry of fear. no jokes.

The movie is about Dr.Abigail Tyler, a psycologist who claims to have ben abducted by aliens. All of these weird disapearences happen in Nome, Alaska. Abigail Tyler was a real person, and still lives today and still beleives that there are aliens out there.
She studied and filmed her patients who all talked about the same exact thing.
The white Owel.
During this movie, we see real footage of the original Abigail Tyler, with her original patients.

The things that you see in those videos are very DISTURBING.
Because, Abigail hypnotized her patients so that they can remember their abduction.
& it was as if they where living it again.

One time, she hypnotized her patient, and as he woke up, he wen't fkng crazy.
He wen't back home, held his family hostage.
Abigail got an urgent call in the middle of the night explaining what was happening, she rushed to her patients home to speak with him.
As she was speaking to her patient on the phone, who was still inside his home with a gun pointing to his wife's head, she tried to convince him that she can help him find out what is taking over his mind..

As this happens in the movie, you see the real footage of her patient, killing his wife, and children.
then.. himself.

& other parts of the movie are even more disturbing.
to understand, you need to watch this movie.
prepared to be freaked out.

i think im scared of aliens.

what
the
fuck?
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# Posté le samedi 07 novembre 2009 08:38

Modifié le dimanche 08 novembre 2009 00:22

This is the Real me. Not the shit you said I must be.

This is the Real me. Not the shit you said I must be.
Let me present myself; my name is Rachelle May Joly aka Rachel Zombie & Rachel Manson Joly-Ranchers. Why? Because. Its just the way its supposed to be. I speek english and french perfectly well, 100% bilingual. So you might notice that some article will be in french while others are in english. I'm 15, going on 16 (woot!) & when I grow up, I wanna be on Broadway. Thats my utimate dream. I've always wanted to sing and act all at the same time, I gotta get better on the dancing part tho :/ Heidi, Valerie, Ashley, Darcia & Amanda are my girls, the ones who've ben in my life since forever, and will always be. Amanda is my best friend, we're so different, but so alike at the same time. 1999 FOREVER <3 Jtrippe sur la musique, c'est basicly ma vie :) At school, I'm in the Music Concentration that usedto be called; VOLET MUSIQUE <3

silly facts :)

- I dance in my underwear with one sock on, after taking a shower.
- I keep every single movie ticket in a pink box, ever since grade 5.
- I love watching disney movies, on VCR. <3
- I watch Dr.Phil every single day of the week :)
- I don't have natural sleep.
- I don't cry in public, unless its really bad.
- My favorite game is Solitaire :)
- my fave songs are pop songs that are remade into metal :p <3


UNDER CONTRUCTION.


my music;

MARILYN MANSON <3
Avenged Sevenfold
Escape the Fate
Love Hate Hero
Attack Attack
Saosin
Alesena
Underoath
A kiss for Jersey
From first to last
Senses fail
Matchbook Romance
Bullet for my Valentine
Tenacious D
the Devil wears prada [X]
Hawthorne Heights
Hollywood Undead
Mastadon [X]
As I lay dying [X]
Evanescence [X]
Winds of Plague
Rage Against the Machine
Queens of the stone Age
Katy Perry [X]
David Cook
Coeur de Pirate
3OH3 [X]
Five Finger Death Punch
Bless the Fall
Job For a Cowboy
Murder Dolls
Devil Driver
August Burns red
Bleeding Through
Lady Gaga
Stone Sour [X]
Simple Plan [X]
Green Day [X]
Marianas Trench
Jason Mraz
Suicide Silence
Heaven Shall Burn
Suffokate
Atreyu
Lamb of God [X]
Killswitch engage
Dethklok [X]
HIM
The Killers.
Protest The Hero [X]
Trivium [X]
God Forbid [X]
Children of Bodom [X]
Arch Enemy
Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
SlipKnot [X]
NightWish
Walking Endless Fields [X][X][X] :)
The Acadamy Is [X]
Secondhand Serenade
Bring me the Horizon
IRON MAIDEN [X]
A day to Remember [X]
Framming Hanley
3 inches of blood. [X] [X]

# Posté le samedi 14 mars 2009 14:35

Modifié le dimanche 08 novembre 2009 00:40

Marilyn Manson won't EVER forget the violence. <3

The ants are in the sugar
The muscles atrophied
We're on the other side, the screen is us and we're t.v.
Spread me open,
Sticking to my pointy ribs
Are all your infants in abortion cribs
I was born into this
Everything turns to shit
The boy that you loved is the man that you fear
Pray until your number,
Asleep from all your pain,
Your apple has been rotting
Tomorrow's turned up dead
I have it all and I have no choice but to
I'll make everyone pay and you will see
You can kill yourself now
Because you're dead
In my mind
The boy that you loved is the monster you fear
Peel off all those eyes and crawl into the dark,
You've poisoned all of your children to camouflage your scars
Pray unto the splinters, pray unto your fear
Pray your life was just a dream
The cut that never heals
Pray now baby, pray your life was just a dream
I am so tangled in my sins that I cannot escape
Pinch the head off, collapse me like a weed
Someone had to go this far
I was born into this
Everything turns to shit
The boy that you loved is the man that you fear
Peel off all those eyes and crawl into the dark,
You've poisoned all of your children to camouflage your scars
Pray unto the splinters, pray unto your fear
Pray your life was just a dream
The cut that never heals
Pray now baby, pray your life was just a dream
The world in my hands, there's no one left to hear you scream
There's no one left for you

I've ben having the worst time EVER. But as usual, music always makes me feel better. And lately I've ben feeling pissed off, angry, frustrated & violent. Everytime I'm pissed, I just wanna knock someone in the face. Like today for example;
Theres this new guy at school & I seriously think he's crushing on me. Always at my locker bugging me FUCK OMG. He asks the stupidest questions & whenever I see his face or even think of him I bite my tongue so I don't rip someones eyes out.
So, after I ditched him fro mmy own locker, I ran into my english class growling like a fucking animal. Someone asked me why I was freaking out; & I of course = Blew up like a volcano.
I started yelling and freaking out & omg it wasen't pretty...
BUT
it felt SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO good...
at the same time.. I felt mean and disrespectfull. making my classmates watch me explode like that isint cool.. some think its funny, others think I'm insane.

# Posté le mardi 29 septembre 2009 17:28

Modifié le mardi 06 octobre 2009 17:45

Theatre of Robots.

You'll make it up, you'll tell a lie. Pretend you're real, go on and try. Praise yourself. It's all ok, it gets easier.So take your pills, blur your life. Forget you were ever there, to enjoy the ride. And bite your lip,swallow your pride. How long has it been for you, since you felt alive?

Theatre of Robots.

# Posté le vendredi 18 septembre 2009 08:56

No need to share tears with others now.


Well ladies and gentlemen;
Rachel Joly got dumped again.
why?
because the guy she was dating din't want to be in a serious relationship with all thats happening.
LOL..
I'm accully feeling pretty good comparing to the first time.
You din't get me this time mark :)
August 24th, I got a message from him; dumping my ass. ( obveously )
You DID NOT make me cry. sorry, not this time buddy.
& then, I had the best day ever.
I'm acculy okay :)
& thanks to Shayne, Eric, Kyle, Megan, Kenny, Paul x2, Fano, Allen, Malcom, Sarah & MANY MANY other people who where at Shayne's, Medley and Mc Donalds. ( so many freaking people:| ) so yeah because of all of you, I feel amazing.
Then at night, popped some E. slept 3 hours.
& this morning; I gotta say; I'm a fucking MESS x)

# Posté le mardi 25 août 2009 07:25

Modifié le mercredi 09 septembre 2009 18:39

If life is stabbing you in the back right now, maybe its because you deserve it.

PART OF MY DESTRUCTION ;

I've ben clean since august 4th :) I'm acculy very proud of myself now, and I really think that I will keep going on like this. I met alot of new people, and many out of them smoke everyday... like the old me.
I find it very sad because some of them are great people, well.. they all are.
No one deserves to be caught up in that shit... its so unfair... they're better than that.

Summer school wasen't so bad, seriously. I met the nicest people; Tits, Olivia, Krystelle, Cath... and I was reunited with my sweet Namah :) <3
And that's when I met Mark , who I fell for. BIG TIME. { 29.07.09 } :D
Thanks to Namah, I became really close friends with Shayne, Eric & Kyle. ( i love you boys. )
Summer school really helped me in many ways;
I'd still be a fuckign stoner.
I would definetly be failing again.
& I met amazing people that I can count on anytime... without them, my life would be so much different.

I miss my cousin Kassy... I haven't seen her in 6 years... she was my fucking best friend, and I miss her like crazy. I wish I wasen't so far away from her... I would totaly be there for her all the time.
She means the world to me, & I can't wait to finally see her again. Its ben too long...
& there have ben kids aswell :) Emmye and Daniel <3 cuties. Can't wait to meet you, I swear I'll be there always for you guys, anytime. je taime <3

I also wanted to talk about my so called friends... who are now hooked on drugs and killing themselves slowly.
What happened? Apparently summer din't do you anygood at all... STOP KILLING YOURSELVES WITH FUCKING DRUGS...
you guys are fucking perma-high now... BRAINLESS.
I know, ben there done that, but dudes, I don't touch that shit anymore.
its useless... pointless... I can't do it, anymore.
and I'm sick and tired of hearing stories about some of you getting arrested, fucking high and popping pills like crazy at parties...
what happened to stoned chillings? those where fine.. even if it went out of control sometimes.
What happened to our big ass skate family?
Why did you guys give up on skate?.... spending that cash on fucking WEED?
I gotta face the truth, what I just stated is true.
All your money goes to that... nothing else. - i miss us. xox

today, august 18th, i spend the hwole entire day with mah boy, James :)
it s ben a while since the last time I saw him, I missed him alot.
I twas hot and shit, but the line-ups where EMPTY.
i had a really fun day, seriously, hope we can do it again some time soon, or maybe next summer, who knows :)
ily :)




& I would like to thank Mark and James for supporting me through what's happening :)
If life is stabbing you in the back right now, maybe its because you deserve it.
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# Posté le mardi 18 août 2009 10:33

Modifié le mardi 18 août 2009 21:49

Forget eachothers name. & just walk away.

you're the one who should be underneath..
suffocating on this air that I breathe..
chocking on your every word,
all the lies that I've heard.

I held you over my head while I was drowning in the deep water for years
keeping your fat ass away from all your fears
taking the hit, taking the blame..
does being a slut like yourself deserve fame?

Still pretending to be someone else?
standing there feeling sorry for yourself?
stop pointing your finger at me,
when a whore is all you'll ever be..

I saw things that no one should see.
no one would support you but me.
I fucking pulled you out of a hole
because to me... you meant the world.

I wasen't very quick at realising what you where doing
I never listened to what the others where saying.
I ignored everyone because I beleived in you
& back then I was the only one who loved you.

To this day, I still am.
because bitch, I took my stand.
I stopped the world from fucking you in the ass all over,
i haven't thought of forgiving you... never.

Now I'm laughing at what you've done to me.
what you did made me stronger, now I'm happy.
In the near futur, you need luck
Because I'll be sitting back here, watching you get FUCKED

as my hate for you continues to grow
I just wanted to let you know..
Still waiting for the day to come
the day that your ridiculous actions will be done.
I'm at my keyboard laughing at what seems to be true,
wishing you where here so I can beat the SHIT out of you.



als;
you won't ever hurt me again.
you can choke on it.



Forget eachothers name. & just walk away.

# Posté le dimanche 16 août 2009 18:26

You can Kill yourself now because you're dead in my mind.

You can Kill yourself now because you're dead in my mind.

# Posté le mercredi 29 juillet 2009 21:50

Modifié le mardi 29 septembre 2009 17:33

I'm addicted to you.

I'm addicted to you.
I need you around,

you can take care of me.

Hold my heart together.

As long as it still beats.

# Posté le samedi 20 septembre 2008 17:15

Modifié le vendredi 24 juillet 2009 14:27

Les couleurs que t'as mis dans ma vie sont tellement belles ...

Je ne le sais pas comment tu fais, mais tu m'as carrement absorber.
T'es quelqu'un de special; aucun mot pour te decrire.
T'as tout ce que j'aimerais dans quelqu'un que je voudrais aimer pour toujours.
Mais toi jeune homme, tu es trop special pour que jt'taime de cette maniere.
Jveu qu'on reste proche, pour aussi longtemps que jrespire. J'aimerais sa.
Savoir que la vie n'est pas facile pour toi me brise le coeur, jte donnerais la mienne, meme si elle n'est pas mieu.
Mais elle serait differente. Pi si sa te rend heureux, chui contente avec sa.
Maintenant jveu pas dormir, jveu te parler, jveu rire avec toi. Jveu manger du squish-squish-sent-bon.
Yer temps que tu realises quia beaucoup de monde qui t'aime..comme moi, par example.
Fou toi de ceux qui ne savent pas apprecier quelqu'un de merveilleux comme toi, meme si c'est difficile.
En ce moment jveu juste te serrer dans mes bras, te dire que jt'addore, pi que tout va aller mieu.
Et en pensant au belles choses que t'as vecu cette semaine, jpeux pas me priver de sourrire :)
Si je ne suis pas la un jour, pour te soutenir, oubli pas que jvais toujours veiller sur toi.
Jt'abandonnerais jamais Franck.
Les couleurs que t'as mis dans ma vie sont tellement belles ...

# Posté le dimanche 19 juillet 2009 02:13